Dear S.A.:
When our psychic abilities start to unfold we can easily become a 'receiver' of all kinds of information, emotional, mental and atmospheric energies. We can pick up a vast array of random or specific psychic and etheric data that might be flying around. That may be good, bad or neither, disruptive, helpful or just simply confusing.
When things start happening for us psychically it can appear very daunting and it is common to have or pick up feelings of foreboding, fear and disassociation. It is quite natural to fear what we don't understand. Get informed and don't be put off by people or friends and associates who might laugh, mock and deride your experiences and impressions. Contact people who understand and meet with like-minded people and gain their support.
You may need to practise and take up some mediation regime or attend some classes on Yoga, Tai chi and or psychic development. Investigate and study the whole phenomena. Knowledge is power and Yoga is a wonderful way to train and focus the mind as well as the body. When the mind is controlled it is less likely to pick up random or unwanted thoughts, feeling impressions and imagery. When the mind begins its disciplining and training you can become more free to see and examine what is really going on around you and 'inside' yourself and others. To be more discriminating or choosy about what types of energy you wish to be influenced by.
Self-mastery is the key in all psychic, mystical and Spiritual work. Check out books on the subject: “Psychic Self-Defense” by Dion Fortune is highly recommended, as indeed are most of her writings.
The fact that people come to you with their questions and problems indicates that on an unconscious level part of them sense they can trust you and knows that you can provide comfort/answers for them.. You could well become a Spiritual Healer or Worker, or a counselor.
Other sources I thoroughly recommend would be "Science of Breath" and "Meditation and Its Practise" by Swami Ramacharaka. (http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0911662006/103-6048937-0982201?v=glance&n=283155) This information will point you in the right direction.
Here is a short Tarot reading regarding your question:
There may be some deception and illusion surrounding you. This doesn't mean that what you sense is entirely false or misguided. You must study and examine your notions and impressions carefully and be wary of making rash judgments. Be very honest about your own feelings, because these may be creating a clouding of perception.
You may have a meeting with someone soon, a male in his early to mid thirties who appears to be a dreamer but can actually lend some insight into what you are experiencing, what you are going through. A person who may shed light on or make sense of the imaginative and abstract imagery and impressions you receive. Offering help and guidance for you.
On a higher level there are potent forces at work that are available to you for advancement in magic, the occult and Spiritual work in general. If you apply yourself by controlling the Imagination and the emotional nature you will be able to tap into theses forces; becoming a positive force for the good.
There is an atmosphere of celebration, a party with close friends, possibly a wedding. This also offers a period of relief after experiencing some loss financially and will be followed by feelings of contentment and a realization of knowing that you have done your best in the face of difficult circumstances.
With spiritual matters try to be careful and circumspect and learn to play by the rules. You should refrain from using shock tactics and avoid rubbing people up the wrong way.
The desire to bring Spiritual meaning to your life is strong. There is so much that lies untapped in you. Learn and study how to open these doors of inner knowledge.
The use of the upright pentagram may be helpful. Symbols act powerfully on Astral beings. When we start to open up our psychic and Spiritual senses and become more sensitive our emotional and subjective world may often be changed under the influence of forms.
You have the inner knowledge to fulfill your Spiritual potential but you must be prepared to learn, be patient and be determined and work hard in your quest for truth.
God Bless
